Love Song

I sleep but my mind is restless. I have been having 2 types of dreams as of late. The first is about my grandmother who recently passed. In the dream I can either hear her or see her, but every time I try to talk to her, I can't. Once, she called me and I answered and she couldn't hear me. I could hear her talking to someone else saying that she didn't know what was wrong with the phone, but she couldn't hear anything. Another one is that she was with me and every time I talked, there were crumbs in my mouth and she (1) couldn't stand that I was talking with food in my mouth and (2) couldn't understand what I was trying to say. I don't know why I am having these dreams. We had some issues that I never fully confronted, but honestly I let them go. I haven't had any of those issues for a while...

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Theory of a Deadman

I am absolutely drowning right now and there is no lifeguard on du...

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Hello

So I guess I'll only make posts in January of a new year. Although I missed 2014, sads. I have so much I need to get out, but it's all clogged up and I don't know where to start. Work: I am still absolutely happy about where I earn a paycheck. There have been times where I've been stressed or questioning my existence. But for the most part I really enjoy what I do and the people I work with. I've become fairly close with one of my co-workers. She's a bit of a weirdo so we bond pretty well. Business: Our company has made huge strides. Our financial growth is 400% from last year which is absolutely amazing. It is all thanks to my husband who has done 99% of the work. I've kinda taken a back seat in it all, but I show up when he asks me to. We just put down a deposit on a space for a studio,...

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I'm Missing You

I think I finally actually miss blogging. Updates: Work: I got a REAL job, my ex's punk-ass-best-friend would be so proud. I mean I've had jobs for the past 14 years of my life, but not only do I own a business that is making strides, I am also working for a real firm doing what I LOVE and what I'm good at. Art: I don't know when the last time was that I put a sharpie on paper. I bought a new journal in hopes that it will be filled with my doodles, lines and swirly things. So far...I've drawn a tree. Words: I was really going to start a journal, but I prefer for the only person to read my shit be Google. I have nosy kids and I don't think they could handle my raw talent of wordplay. Besides, I have to talk about them. So I think that is why I will TRY to be back on here when I can. Family:...

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Joe's Head

There are certain parts of my past that I regret. Especially when it comes to Mr. Fox and our past. There are times that I think about things that make me cringe. Times that I know he was waiting in the shadows, loving me from a distance, a distance that I insisted on only to do my dirt as I pleased. I regret all the time we missed out on and the changes in our timeline that could have happened if only I would have jumped. One of our first dates was a movie. A movie that I really wanted to see, because of my crush on Shia Lebouf, Eagle Eye. He remembers the shoes I wore on that date, ones I still have but forgot that I wore that day. I went to do some yardwork one day, put on my kicks and he looked at me like I murdered a baby deer. Once he told me why, I changed my shoes and have only wore...

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Time After Time

If I had a time machine I would give you the keys Enter the day That you wish to see Change the course Of your current state Create a new future Manipulate Fate No more regret No more sorrow The grass is always greener In your world of tomorrow...

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Ain't No Sunshine

Today was a nice day but it's still cloudy. I slept alright last night, had some weird dreams that I can't really remember. I know that my dad and my brother were in it but I don't remember what it was all about. I woke up a little later than usual with the good news that my sister-in-law was going to come over so that Mr. Fox and I could go on a lunch date with some friends. I put some more time in to Ali's hair, because I wasn't sure what time I would get back and I didn't want her to be up late getting her hair did. I finished up some freelance work, withdrew some money in to my PayPal and started to get ready to leave. The drive was nice, lunch was good except Mr. Fox didn't like what he ordered so we traded plates. So instead of a Chicken Avocado BLT I had the fish tacos. I was going...

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